After publishing my memoir The Nancy Who Drew, last summer with little fanfare, (other than the joy of those who have known me any length of time as it took me over a decade!) – it took another eight months to be able to create a book trailer. This was because I needed time to get used to the idea that my book, my story, my life, my secrets, my family history – was now out there. And anything can happen Out There. Ridicule, criticism, ostracism, not to mention the disappointment of being ignored. So, I needed time to adjust to my new status of being published. I felt so vulnerable suddenly. So exposed.
During those eight months I began work on a followup book, and wrote out many different kinds of ‘scripts’ for a book trailer. But none of them felt right. And then I wanted to talk directly into the webcam, which needed not only confidence, but a bit of expertise in Windows Movie-Maker. The weeks and months went by. I didn’t practice making videos. But I did something else.
I got clear in other areas. I had been doing a blog talk radio show for over two years called Art and Ascension. By the fall of 2011 I felt it was time for a change, and began a new show called Dancing in the Shift. Now, instead of calling myself Nancy Wait, my host name was NancyGo. I was definitely on the move. Then, as the calendar year swung into 2012, I found little excitement for ‘Dancing in the Shift.’ It seemed to have run its course, fulfilled its mission, in bringing me to the next place. The moment I realized it was time for another dance was when I realized I did a show about baking muffins. What I needed and wanted to share was a lot more than a story about baking. It was time to step up to the plate with my real ‘mission.’
So a few weeks ago I began a third internet radio show, naming it after the title of my memoir so there would be no mistake what it was about or who I was. I can be Wait or Go – but I’m now going out there as The Nancy Who Drew Radio Show, stating my case. Which is, that Betrayal is Sacred when the Heart Can Encompass the Whole.
And that’s no small potatoes. So, a strange thing happened. After a couple of weekly shows, I woke up one morning and knew exactly what my video – my book trailer would be. I wrote the script in a couple of hours and then collapsed with exhaustion at the energy expended. Needless to say, the time was right. I was ready at last. LINK to book trailer.
Now that that’s done, some new space opened up in my mind. I started thinking about memoirs again, and what a release it is to spill the beans. To empty out. To tell what hasn’t been told. And to tell it in such a way that is informative and possibly even uplifting to others. How it clears the psyche. How it makes us ready for the next thing, whatever that might be.
And I started feeling immense gratitude and appreciation for all the writers of personal stories who have dared to go out on a limb and speak their truth. The upshot of it all is, I would like to honor them on my new radio show. Perhaps in some cases I will just read out the title and the name of the author, and post a link in the chat room. In other cases, for those that are open to it, I will ask them to call into the show and say a few words to us about what it was like to write their story.
The idea just came to me an hour or so ago. Because I had mentioned something about “Holding Space” for healing (healing betrayal specifically) on my inaugural show, and it made me aware suddenly, that those who I would like to reach, I may never be able to reach. And yet I am putting the thought out there. The thought-form of healing betrayal by opening the heart to encompass the whole (story). And memoir writers – those that write from the heart and express their truth no matter how painful it might be, are clearing themselves. Maybe clearing old wounds. Maybe finding redemption in the telling. And this is important. This is big. Not only for the writers themselves, but for those who come after. Because we are clearing our psyches. We are making the world a slightly less dense place, a somewhat lighter place, because of our efforts.
So, if you are a writer of memoir, or if you know someone who is, or if you have been moved by a particular memoir and would like to share, please leave a comment here, or send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org
Thank you ~